Let Him Slay Me

“Though He slays me yet will I trust in him, and I will maintain my ways before him”  Job 13:15

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We had all heard the question - “Why do bad things happen to good people?” Why despite their faithfulness and supplications do some saints become ill and die from horrible diseases? Why do so many believers not experience the presence of God, see visions or angels? And why are millions of Christians not prospering financially? - [
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Despite all that the death and resurrection of Jesus put into motion, Christians continue to get sick, age and die. While I might offer several biblical solutions to such questions, at best, they provide intellectual answers.

Compounding the problem are the promises and expectations being peddled by far too many pastors, preachers, “prophets,” and “apostles” who tell us that God always intends to heal, or that it is always His will for you to prosper. To listen to them, one concludes that truly “spiritual” Christians feel the awesome presence of God, receive visions and angelic visitations daily. But since millions of believers either do not or rarely have such experiences, the question arises – “What is wrong with me?”

I must confess, I have had a handful of powerful spiritual experiences. And they meant a great deal to me at the time. Nevertheless, I stress the word “handful,” for I can count them on the fingers of one hand, and I do not all five digits. And there have been long intervals between those experiences. Mathematically speaking, they occur an average of “once in a blue moon.” Whether or not something is wrong with me, supernatural visitations are not part of my daily routine, or at least, I am too spiritually dull to be aware of them.

I can speculate why the person sitting next to me in the pew experiences God’s overwhelming presence and I do not, or why one man was healed of cancer, but another was not, but I cannot presume to know the answers. Contrary to what some preachers present, the Christian walk is NOT a cookie-cutter business; one size does not fit all. Why are some men called to martyrdom, but most are not? I am not privy to God’s inner thoughts.

Fortunately, at an early stage in my Christian walk, I was taught to walk according to the biblical principles no matter what. Regardless of what I felt yesterday or this morning, good, bad, or indifferent, I must walk by faith and live the same way whether I experience the supernatural or not.

But that exhortation became very personal when I was hit with the challenge – What will you do if God never heals you, if you never feel His presence again, or if you never see a vision? What will you do then?

The story of Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-Nego brought this home. No, not their miraculous deliverance from the fiery furnace, but their declared commitment. After Nebuchadnezzar threatened them with death if they did not render homage to his “golden image,” they declared:
  • Our God whom we serve is well able to deliver usBut if He does not, be it known to you that we will not serve your gods, nor worship the golden image that you have set up.
Though he slays me, yet will I trust Him.” And THAT is a far cry from the self-centered religion practiced today in far too many contemporary churches.
After all, when I was yet a miserable sinner and an “enemy of God,” Christ died a horrific death for me, thereby reconciling me to my Creator from whom I was alienated. That was an act of sheer grace, of divine mercy, and therefore, who am I to now demand or expect anything of Him?

In the grand scheme of things, whether I feel His comforting presence today or cross paths with an angel tomorrow matters very little. I have known men who experienced deep spiritual encounters, visions, and miraculous healings, and yet today they are no longer walking with God. Apparently, it takes something more than supernatural miracles to stand victoriously before Him on the day when it truly counts.

And I have also known men who did not experience such things, and yet they remained faithful to Jesus and to their ministry to the bitter end, individual believers who epitomized Jesus’ description of the faithful servant:
  • So likewise, you, when you have done all those things which are commanded you, say: We are unprofitable servants. We have done that which was our duty to do.
And that is my own challenge. Rather than answer the question - Why do bad things happen to good people – I must remain faithful to Him and to the tasks He puts in my hand to do regardless of whatever else may occur.



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